Like telepathy
The feeling of your mind being accessable to everyone is something most fearful causing paranoia. It happens when other people talk and they seem to directly answer your thoughts in their sentence though on a totally different topic of conversation to what your thinking of. It always catches you off guard at first then gradually you start to look for the signs in the speech. The whole process of a mental break down is mental overload. Thoughts you have are uncontrollable and then other people seem to know what you are thinking as well. It gets a bit too close to home, too personal. It makes you want to hide away, even kill yourself out of shame. Total exposure of your deepest darkest feelings and fears. Then there is broad casting that is actually a scientific word but I use it in this context …..that you feel your thoughts are heard by lots of people even masses, it gives you a bit of a god complex because people respond to you. I remember once and this may be a coincidence but I was shopping and I had a list of stuff to get consisting of spinach, double cream, 3 more items I wrote to go with it, can’t remember now. I was standing in the que to pay and I saw 3 other people with the same 5 items in they’re basket…….it was really weird and quite freaky. I also remember a women saying ‘oh spinach I really fancy spinach today’. I mean spinach isn’t a usual thing to eat really is it? Yet 5 people were buying it in this small store and 4 were in the que to pay like me……..It may just be a coincidence as I said but made me feel too exposed. At the cashier I saw the lady had a bandage support on her wrist. I wondered to myself what she had done to herself, and at that point I could feel something in my head communicate with her….like the others (voices) and suddenly my head was filled with laughter and she instantly giggled as well???? It was really odd, but that is so hard to describe properly. It was almost like the lady cashier had said a joke and the voices were responding to it.
There was a time where I watched football on TV and I felt like I was controlling the game. The bad thing is my team never wins and even when I do play games on playstation or anything like that it is as though think I am the opposing team, but anyway, I was trying to control a live football match with my mind, and I was dead chuffed as it went swimmingly and they passed the ball everywhere I looked. They did win that time and I felt like I was helping them, somehow! Something about the evil eye and quick glances, dotting eyes about the screen looking for places to pass and also shooting an evil eye look to someone to stop them getting the ball. Hmmmmm. I don’t know it was like I had learnt it from somewhere. Men probably do it all the time!!!!
The telepathy is really hard to describe and probably people do it all the time a bit, just for us it is so meaningful and often that it becomes part of life. It occurs occasionally now, but I ignore it now not putting so much relevance into it, but I still feel the weighted words impact on me at the time.
I felt that I was able impart information someone else had said (though I would not be able to repeat it) to someone else that had not heard that information yet, though my mind. It was a strange. I also knew it came from me as I was the only person who had been told it. The person would say it in exactly those words repeated. In this moment a feeling of pressure released in my mind, not quite like a headache leaving but more subtle. It was a flowing feeling out of my mind and directed to someone else. Yeah it sounds all very far-fetched I know but this happened the one time.
Thoughts I believe are energy created and once energy is created it can not be destroyed so thoughts carry on into the universe, so I always try to be wary of my thoughts. I know you can’t hold all of them back but you can censor them, in case they hurt someone. This quote is from a book I know but which one I am not sure of.
